Was it Really that Bad of a Day?

I feel like it is so important to share this story. It is deeply personal and has moved me into a place that I am left with awe at the wonders of God. I have always believed that his Spirit moves but I really never knew how to find it or what His voice sounds like. I am writing this out so that I can come back to it in the future and remember the sound of His voice when I am in the pit of despair.

For those who haven't read my previous blog, I wrote about my despair and low place that I was in on Wednesday. I was uncertain about how and why it was going on but I felt like I needed to crawl in a hole and die. I didn't even want to pray or anything. I wrote a blog to remember God's promises but even while I was writing, I didn't believe it. Thursday morning God started working on my heart and teaching me that I was like Peter who when he kept his eyes focused on Jesus was able to walk on water, but when he looked away and look at the impossible (Or in my case, think that it was by my hands) Peter began to sink. God taught me that I was beginning to take my focus off of Christ. The Spirit moved in me and seemed to ask me, "Are you ready to continue?" and so I said, "I will follow." Yesterday was a new day in which His mercies were renewed.

Back up just a bit; Paul talked to me about some things that were transpiring in his life and particularly the direction that One CC is taking for the future. He told me about the convergence of One CC with other businesses in order to create a community outreach. One of those businesses was a skate shop.

So I was driving home from work yesterday and the car in front of me had a sticker that was huge that said, "Scene 3".  I think I was on the phone with Em at the time and I asked her if Scene 3 was a skate shop and she said it was and she thinks that the owner goes to One CC. I said to her I think that might be the shop that is moving into the new building with One CC. Immediately I felt a prompting, "Call Paul and tell him what I told you and pray with him." Now, I feel like I am sounding a bit Pentecostal as this is unfamiliar territory, but I did what the Spirit asked.

This morning Paul told me that last night he had a meeting and talked about the fact that what we as a church need to do is to focus our attention on Christ like Peter did and he will lead us to do the impossible.  We can't focus on ourselves and how we are weak and can't do it.  It is the Spirit of God that will lead us. He told me that the story I told him was the story that he felt the Spirit telling him to share.

There isn't a huge ending to this story like, "And then money fell from heaven" or "The people all fell to their knees and worshiped God". But here is something that did/does happen. One bad day was taken and used to teach me, Paul, and others. I don't know where the Spirit will move with my story, but I thank God that I listened.

I wonder if that is how the Saints feel. A sense of, "Wait, me sinking into water and taking my eyes of off Christ moved in these people's lives?" I don't know. I do know that I want more experiences like that. The crazy thing is that I have heard these types of stories before and was like, "No biggie it probably was just coincidence or something." It would be easy to dismiss this story to be sure. But I know that the Spirit moved.

Noah S.